FEAR

Heart Calling

I have made an open invitation to fear
To the darkness creeping into my heart
I could give in or maybe I couldn’t
But I’m really hopeless and helpless at this end
The courage in me has lost its flame
I no longer have the strength to make it through the day
Sadness came and swept me off my feet
And emptiness would rather do a dance with me
Agony has bluntly refused to leave.

The feeling emerges

Slowly at first
Now a constant ache
Releasing sobs of grief
It spreads, enlarging, ravaging, consuming
My heart pounding, shattering
The breakpoint is reached
I can endure no more
I can further no more
I can see no more.

My strength is gone

Gone to the world beyond

I’m afraid and scared

I long to be happy

I long to be free

I long to smile

I long to have peace

I long to be strong

I want my life back

I want to make it through this difficult time

I want to be a survivor

I want to look back and say yes I did it

I know I can

I am determined to give it a try

I’d give happiness a second chance

I’d ask strength for a very long and exciting dance

I’d fill up the empty spaces in my soul

I’d pick up the pieces and mend my broken heart

With the threads of love, laughter, hope and strength

My mind will be as good as new

My heart will be free again

Free of pain and anguish

Free of torments and sorrow

I will smile again;

Again and again my fear will be extinguished.

Writer: Anu Joseph

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